Sad Woman at Christmas

When Christmas Isn’t Merry

‘Tis just days before Christmas and all through the house is a feeling of loneliness having been betrayed by my spouse. No stockings are hung and the chimney is bare, I am home yet wishing I was any where but there. Every channel is airing some cheery holiday show, If feels like everyone’s going somewhere I can’t go. I try to remember that feeling of cheer, but I can’t seem to find a s... Read More »

Stone Paths or Piles? What Am I Leaving Behind?

Stone Paths or Piles? What Am I Leaving Behind?

Boy Scout founder, Robert Baden Powell said, “No one can pass through life, any more than he can pass through a bit of country, without leaving tracks behind, and those tracks may often be helpful to those coming after him in finding their way.” I wondered what I am leaving behind as I go through life? What is my legacy? I know we don’t talk about it, but there is a 100% morality rat... Read More »

Spring

Spring

I love spring. Even when I lived in So. California and there was no shortage of sun, the light of spring seemed different. Now that I live in the Pacific Northwest, I look forward to the explosion of pink and white petals which seems to come out of nowhere. When those first fruit trees burst forth their floral announcement of spring, something comes alive in me. Something called Hope. There have b... Read More »

Degreasing

Degreasing

There is a sticky substance that once it gets into my heart and mind, seems to grow. If left un-checked, soon I’m drowning. I had to deal with this black goop a lot after my husband’s disclosure regarding his sexual sin. That was 15 years ago. Much like cleaning up an oil spill, it took a lot of time and the careful removing of every dark and sticky thought. The substance is self-loathing. Whe... Read More »

Perspectives

Perspectives

Sometimes a word keeps coming up as if the Lord wants me to pay particular attention. Perspective seems to be the word of this season. I had the pleasure of spending three weeks welcoming my first grandchild, a boy, into the world with my daughter and son-in-love. To say it was awesome doesn’t do such a blessing justice but, that’s the best word I can find. I know, babies are born every day. L... Read More »

Season of New!

Season of New!

Have you ever been thrown into a new job or situation knowing little of what was ahead? It happened last year for me with Hope After Betrayal Ministries. Every day was like turning a new page. This kind of unknown territory can bring a great deal of fear if I focus on the “what if” instead of the One who is guiding me. I’m still in a season of learning new skills, meeting new people, writing... Read More »